When I was a child, there was a time when I thought Christianity was a selfish faith. Not selfish in believers, but in who God is. I knew it was never about Adam or Eve. It was never about anyone, except God. It was about Christ. It was what God wanted for us and for Himself, not what we wanted for Him or for ourselves. We take offense at this, because we think we are good. We think we are sufficient on our own and that we deserve more when we turn from the Cross, but that contradicts worship. (See last post!)
It is easy to forget why we worship. Yes, because we have been saved by Christ. Except, it’s more than that. We were saved by Christ because God is good. We worship because God is greater than we realize. This is a common disconnect for both believers and non-believers. Believers can struggle with knowing how good God is. There is a lack of understanding and relatability because the truth is, we are not good. We delude ourselves into thinking we are worth something without Christ. Without God, we are just humans, but not Christians. We make up lifestyles that go against the reality of our design. We do what we want. We neglect that we were made in His image. We do not understand our sin because we live in it. We think we’re justified in everything we do. We put our judgement above His commands.
It isn’t often we realize we’re wrong for doing something until we look back at having done it. At that point, we can disassociate ourselves from our actions. “I’d never do that now.” It’s as if we are more relevant today than we were then. We grow with time, so there’s some obvious truth to that. That’s why we have a better perspective and can say we once did something wrong.
But we still did something out of accordance in what He wants for us. We’ve been humbled, and now we’ve grown. We start to realize that we can be wrong. We aren’t as great as we thought. We’re growing.
Everyone’s house has a smell. When you go to a friend’s home, you might pick up on it. You might think it’s musty and that they should open the windows to circulate air. But will the friend realize they should do this? They won’t, because they live there. They’re used to the ora of their home. It’s normal to them, just as sin is normal to us. (They’ll probably hold offense to being told their house smells, and will specifically not open the windows because of the offense… Even if they realize it does smell bad.)
Life is humbling. We think we’re always right, but that’s not true. Perspective is not immediate. Perspective cannot be rushed.
Emphasizing on the anti-climatic, down points of life makes a person better. A writer does not put their characters through hardships for them to remain the same, or for them to get worse than they already are. A writer makes their characters better, molding them to fit their personal ideals of what a person should be, by putting them through a a series of events, a journey. This has been done to us. Everything is for the good of the believer, and then must be for God’s glory.
In a culture where everyone is right all the time about everything, humility has been lost. We are told to not correct ourselves. To accept who we are, as we are. When looking for a relationship, we’re told to find someone who doesn’t want us to be any different than we are. We emphasize acceptance, and open-mindedness, but we go against what we say. We say we’re fine as we are. “Never change.” I don’t trust staying the same forever.
“I’m not an advocate of ‘self-acceptance’ in the way it’s culturally marketed. I think it’s good for our egos to get shaken up, and when they do, instead of ignoring the toxicity that flares up within us, invite God to extract the poison of your brokenness, and experience the joy of self-growth – something far more beautiful than mere acceptance.”
I only trust people who know that they have never been as great as they once thought they were, and know they still aren’t even what they now consider to be great. I’m posting this, knowing I might regret it, either after a day after, or a year after. (That feeling isn’t foreign. I used the internet more than I should’ve when I was younger.)
I’m going to go back to what I was saying earlier. While we have wronged ourselves in our actions, we have also wronged God. In misusing life, we have taken advantage of the One who gave us life. We have been given a purpose, and we don’t even want it. We have been told the point of living, and we hate it. We hate that we are not meant to live for ourselves. But it’s true. That’s why Christians are Christians. As a friend recently said, church is offensive, but people come back because they don’t have a choice in what the truth is. And when seeing what is true, love also comes.
“O to grace how great a debtor daily I’m constrained to be! Let thy goodness, like a fetter, bind my wandering heart to thee. Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, prone to leave the God I love; here’s my heart, O take and seal it, seal it for thy courts above.”
The truest humility comes from the truest truth, and growing to love Him.
We are not our own, but who we belong to, is good.